The Perfect Dancer

Her passion has always been ballet. Since she was a little girl she attended her ballet classes. Her classes started out being once a week and as she got older she started dancing even more and taking ballet even more serious. She started dancing two times a week for two hours than three times a week for two hours and as she got older her ballet time kept increasing and became a very hard schedule. She didn’t care, because she loved it. She got to perform in The Nutcracker and in many showcases. It felt great for her to be able to be part of such a show that everyone knows about. She performed in The Nutcracker three years in a row. Not just any dancer could perform, there were tryouts, and the tryouts were hard. She was a dancer of a very strict school, where not everyone had a chance to show what they have.
As years passed by and she started getting older her ballet friends were decreasing. She started out with many friends and she loved them and had so much fun with them, but as they all got older many started getting kicked out of the school because they were to fat, they were not good dancers, or they just didn’t have good enough feet. The competition was getting bigger and harder. She felt alone and in this on her own. She was always trying her hardest and making it, but when she realized that she was at the point that all of her outside friends were starting to have social lives and she was not, she started to feel bad. She wanted to go out and have fun, everyone was starting to do it, but she just did not have anytime. This was only her issue for a little while, because then she realized that she had a gift that many dreamed to have. She was a great ballet dancer with a future. She could not give up on what she had.
Her mother got mad at her every time she would mention quitting. She really did love it. Though, she did come to a point that she was getting tired of it. She wanted to take a “break”. She wanted to see what she was missing out on, and just relax. The ballet school was getting very tough on her. She felt like a slave like she didn’t have any time to do anything. She had basically forgotten what her hair looked like when it was clean, wavy, and shiny because she always had it in a tight bun with a lot of hairspray. She wanted to be able to wear all the beautiful clothes she had in her closet, but she couldn’t because her time consist of wearing her uniform half during the day, and the rest of the afternoon her leotard and tights, and at night her pajamas. She wanted to be comfortable wearing any type of shoe when she was not dancing, but she couldn’t because her feet were always aching because of her point shoes. It was hard for her. She felt like an Aileen, like a stranger who dint know anything. She felt like she was missing out on life.
She was already teenager, and she was ready to live. One day she told her mother and her brother that she was going to quit for just a little bit. Her brother got very upset at her and at her mother for actually letting her make that decision. Her mother only let her because she knew that she could not make her daughter dance and obligate her to keep going when she was tired. Her brother told her mother that’s he was making a huge mistake and that all girls wanted to be dancers and wished they could be just as lucky to have the feet his sister has.
She quit, she stopped dancing and started going out, having fun, and just even relaxing. After a year of this she loved the life of not doing anything. She started gaining weight, becoming careless, and she just basically forgot that’s he was a dancer.
When she started seeing anything that had to do with ballet she did feel bad. After two years of not doing anything, she missed her perfect ballet life. She realized she made a huge mistake, she realized she was not missing out on anything. That her friends had boring lives, they only went out but either way every weekend was exactly the same. She wanted to go back to ballet so badly. So she did.
Her first day of ballet again was very hard for her. She felt out of shape and got tired very easily. She was not as flexible as she was before, and she was not as skinny. She decided to change, to try very hard, to lose weight, and to just be that ballerina that she used to be. She did this after a year of trying hard, hours of practice; she became the perfect dancer that she was. She had that skill in her. She was a ballet dancer.

The Liposuction Mistake

My daughter had been a little chubby all of her life. She was normal; I mean really she had a normal body with a coupe of land handles. People never even said anything to her, so I never understood why it bothered her so much, she always looked great.
When Rachel turned 21, she decided to get a job and work for money to be able to pay off a liposuction surgery. I didn’t agree with it so I told her she could get a job and pay for it herself. That was exactly what she did.
I went with her to the doctor’s appointment, she was so excited, she did exactly what she was told and followed all rules. The day she was in for surgery, I prayed all day because I was told that liposuction is a very risky surgery. Sometimes the surgery could go wrong; I just wanted to make sure god was by her the whole time. Either way I was sure nothing would happen, she was a strong girl.
The day of surgery I was waiting in the waiting room, right outside. All of a sudden I saw nurses running in and out of the room. The Doctors were quickly being called into the room. I asked what was going on, but they wouldn’t tell me. They just told me to be patient. A Doctor came out and told me that if I wanted I could see what was going on, but that it might be hard for me. I went in at once to see, and right when I walked in I saw my daughter laying there, their was blood all over the room and the doctors had the defibrillator on her. Her heart was topping, and she wouldn’t stop bleeding. I couldn’t believe this, I just wanted to know what had gone wrong and the doctors just didn’t understand what had happened to her. After 20 minutes of them trying to get her back, she was gone. I just wanted them to keep trying to get her back, but they told me there was no hope.
The Doctors told me that they would let me now exactly when they knew what had gone wrong. After so many long hours that had come back to me to tell me that my daughter was taking dieting pills that were extremely strong, they had interfered with the whole surgery. She was told that she could not take anything that was not medicated by her sergeant before and during the surgery. I was so shocked. There was nothing I could do. I lost my daughter, my life. Everything from that moment on was gone in my life. My daughter lost her life, I lost my life.

Love at First Sight

Do you remember the first time you laid eyes on that person? That feeling was a one time feeling. It was like a dream. The chills climbing up my spine, my stomach full of butterflies. I promise I have never felt them so full in my life! I could just remember every word he said, and every moment and exactly what he was wearing. It was the most amazing feeling. I couldn’t stop staring into his eyes and I just felt like staying in the same spot with that same person for the rest of my life!
The day past slowly and it was great, because I didn’t want it to go by fast. I wanted everyday to be like that unforgettable day. I love feeling nervous and having my face permanently red just like a tomato. I laughed I played and I smiled with him. It was so childish, but it felt so good. The connection was so great! The energy was so good, and it was like we already knew each other. I could live that day over and over again.
The next day came and I was even more excited to see him because I already knew him and we talked more and had a lot of fun together. The connection got even bigger as days and weeks passed by. I still could feel the nerves sometimes but not as much, I still got excited when I saw him, and I still felt so much. But it was just not like the first time I saw him.
I had lost that love at first sight feeling. I was sick of seeing him after more weeks passed by. I actually couldn’t even stand him anymore. I started getting nervous every time he would call because I didn’t want him to realize that I was actually ignoring his call. I still got red like a tomato but from the anger he made me feel. I had already been sick to my stomach from all of the butterflies. The connection was gone! The excitement, the love, it was all gone. I couldn’t take him anymore. I was so annoyed of him. It was sad though, because the first time I saw him it felt like the best day of my life, and I was at a point that I couldn’t even stare this stranger in his eyes. That was when I realized that I was not in love at all. I was never in love. It was all just a crush.
So time passed and I met people and I had a couple of those love at first sight moments and feelings. But what’s the point of calling it love at first sight, every time you feel that in love feeling, when in the end it was just another mistake you made. Love is huge, love is beautiful, but do we really know what love mean and how it truly feels? I love my mom, my bed, but to be in love with a partner, how will you ever know this? Does love at first sight exist? Many people believe so much in it, but I definitely have my doubts.

Valentine's Day is Just Anotehr Day

Today is Valentine’s Day. Most people love Valentine’s Day because it makes them feel special. If I had a Valentine today I would probably feel special to. But, today I don’t. So this year I do not like Valentine’s Day. It is not the same for your friends and family to give you chocolates and roses, it’s nice having a valentine to bring you chocolates and maybe have a nice meal together. It is extremely cheesy, even if you do have someone to spend the day with. Deep inside I don’t like it at all. The chocolates are good, I love roses, but its corny and annoying seeing all the loved ones celebrating it together and getting each other gifts, because for the it is such a “special” holiday. Everyday should be full of love, chocolates, and gifts, not just February 14. And a question that I have always asked myself… is valentine’s day really for couples and crushes, or is it really for friends, families, and couples? To many it means different things. For me Valentine’s Day a day made for couples and crushes. I love everything about love, but I hate the feeling of love on Valentine’s Day. Yes its true, Valentines is very special. The day you can really show someone how much you love them, the hearts, the roses, and the chocolates. It’s all great, but why only on this day? Nothing really happens on Valentine’s Day. Having the experience of living in the United States and living in Colombia, the difference between Valentine’s Day in both countries is huge. In the U.S people are definitely more in to the holiday, here in Colombia it is just a cheap copy of U.S Valentines. Valentine’s Day is just an excuse to receive and give gifts to a person that you really love or feel for. Just because a person is too shy to give a gift on another normal day, they just wait to Valentine’s Day to express their love. Either way Valentine’s Day is the same as any other day and expressing yourself on that day or on another day you are still expressing and showing your love to a that special person. Be free to love any day of the week, month, or year. Show anyone you love them, give gifts and receive gifts whenever you want. Valentine’s Day is no different than any other day.

Wednesday: A Mourning Workout and Laziness!

Wednesday morning, my worst nightmare. For me there is nothing that I hate more than having to wake up on Wednesday morning for school, just thinking that I am exactly in the middle of my school week! I suffer, it hurts. This morning my alarm went off, I only wanted five more minutes, but those quick five minutes turned in to 20 minutes. I didn’t mind because I was sound asleep but my mom had to come in turning the lights on yelling at me that the bus is going to leave me and that I’m going to be late. My reaction was to quickly jump out of bed get in the shower grab a bite and run. I had to run like a block to catch up to the bus. It was horrible. Once I was on the bus I felt as if I had run a mile, I was practically sweating. I got to school and what a surprise, I started first period with P.E, we had to run and I couldn’t even walk I was so tired. The block went by so slow and I was in such a hurry for break. Finally! After a million long hours as it had seemed to be I was sitting in break having a nice chat about what I was going to do on my vacation. The chat did not last long as I had to go to English; English seems to always go by very quick. We work hard and a lot, so time flies. The class I really don’t enjoy at all and especially today is Calculus. It drives me crazy. Today we had a quiz and I am almost positive I failed it. In Calculus we have one day lecture and group work and the next day we have a quiz, so it just all goes by so fast. I lasted the whole period trying to figure out how to get through the quiz and I could just not do it. That class put me in a very bad mood today; I ended my day with art. In art I always feel better because I just paint and let everything bad out. It relaxes me. Although today I did rush and I just wanted the class to end so that I could go home have lunch and just relax. I was tired from such a long school day. I got home as quick as I could without saying bye to anyone to just get home have lunch which was delicious and go to sleep. I woke up at around seven to spend the rest of my night on facebook and chatting in messenger. What a day! But there is absolutely nothing better than getting home from school and spending a long afternoon doing absolutely nothing!

Gossip CNG

One of the biggest issues in high school is the gossip and rumors. In school a person does not get away with anything, there is always someone watching and someone who spills the beans. Every move made in school has to be carefully made and prepared for what could happen if everyone finds out and people start talking. CNG is the world of gossip. The perfect example of CNG is the T.V series Gossip Girl. We live in the same world with the same issues. People in the school live of off one another’s life. Everyday the spotlight can be on someone else, but usually there are those who are not slick at all and always get caught. Once the rumor starts the gossiping starts and there is no stopping it until something new comes up, and even if something new has come up and people have started gossiping about the new rumor, the old ones are still always remembered. Nobody ever forgets a good rumor. Boyfriends ad girlfriends have to watch themselves if they decide to get flirty with someone else, or even cheat. You can be on the other side of the world and somehow the school will always find out. The word always gets out and people will always talk.In CNG the students, parents, and even teachers are all aware and are all always into hearing the gossip about anything. Its not only CNG, but let me just say it’s a hobby here. It’s best to be a nobody than a somebody. It’s best to avoid all situations. People are evil, and with something happening bad or good they get joy out of talking about it.

Scarface: The World is Yours

Scarface a thriller, gangster, love, and betrayal movie directed by Brian De Palma is a great over the top film. It has lot of creativity from being in a hard core gangster scene to killing someone but ending it with a little bit of humor by Al Pacino saying a funny comment. Its rough, it’s bloody, and it’s is excellent.
Throughout the movie, one’s eyes are wide opened not blinking to see what will come next. Al Pacino playing Tony Montana is a likeable bad guy. He is a killer, a drug addict, but at the same time he is so great and so powerful that one just has to love him. The way he talks with his accent and with such sarcasm really makes a person enjoy the actor and respect him in a good way. Scarface starts out as a Cuban immigrant being able to be free, getting off in the ports of Miami. He talks his way into being let into the country. In doing some extra work he gets his green card automatically. As he starts out as nothing, Manny his co-partner, Steven Bauer, convinces him to deal and help out in the gangster life. They become big, Tony becomes the King of the yeyo and he gets the power, but he is confident and has too much of an ego . He gets the girl, the money, the drugs, and the liquor, but for caring too much about getting more of that stuff and the power he looses it all. Al spices up the movie a lot more with his Cuban accent, sometimes not even understanding half of the things he says but one is still there, one is still going along with everything he does and says. Scarface is a Bad Hero, but as much as he is hated in the movie and does bad stuff, when he dies the audience does not get excited and say, “Yes, they killed him.” Instead it is a “oh no! They killed him” Tony cared for the people, he didn’t want to kill anyone, but when things got out of control he had to. Scarface wanted the world to be his, that was his goal.
Scarface is very violent and is enjoyable to many, but at the same time it might not be pleasing to others. De Palma for many made this movie a success and really gave the audience something to talk about after the film. The movie is all so real, the love story, the violence, the drugs, and relationship between the people. Even the lines are memorable. This movie is for people who like real world movies, gangsters, Al Pacino, and violence. It is not for people who are not into seeing blood, hearing loud surprising gun shots, and annoying Cuban accents with cocaine. Other wise this could be one of the best films ever made for many and one of the most disliked films ever made for others.

The Sudden Change

This has been a long week for me. I am exhausted and I feel lost. All week I have been trying to get to class on time, concentrate on school, and work out every afternoon. I haven’t been able to do any of it. I feel like because of my mood this week I just can’t make my own decisions or even think right. I have been trying to dedicate myself to do these things and I just cannot. I am not sleeping at night, and the little that I do get to sleep I wake up extremely hot, sweating, and scared. I look around and my room just feels so small and so dark, but when I say dark I mean its morning and the sun is already out and yet the room is dark without anything of light coming in from anyway. It scares me. When I am at school, I’m in class just day dreaming. Or maybe it is not even day dreaming because I have no idea what I am thinking about. I just have millions of things going on in my head without knowing what these things are. My classes go by so slow, like an eternity and in the moment I look at my watch and say there are ten minutes left those ten minutes that I sit back for go by in two seconds. My friends are all crazy. I look at them and just listen to them talk and it’s all so stupid. They are all so pathetic. What is wrong with me? I know it’s me and not them. My afternoons are long and I just feel like eating and listening to music. But I can’t, I can eat, but having to decide what to listen to is so annoying. Either the song is too happy or to sad, or the beat is to fast or to slow. I can’t sit still, and yet I can’t do anything because I don’t even know what I want. It’s very confusing, sometimes I feel I’ m going crazy, but then I feel like and I know that I will get over this. It’s just a like a dilemma I have that I’m feeling lost and everything is a problem. But what is it exactly what I am feeling? Is my body or am I calling for help, or am I just over exaggerating like everybody else says to me. But if I am, I am such a drama queen and I always make fun of the other girls that I feel are real drama queens. I am going to calm down relax; it’s all going to be over soon. It’s just a stage that maybe everyone goes through. I have to fight against the negative energy trying to take over my life. I am a happy person. I live around happy people, and I come in peace. I just think positive and keep thinking positive and there! In just one second I have become a new person. This weird feeling is all of a sudden all gone. I feel that it is gone and I know it’s gone, I feel different, I feel happy I feel completely new. I am ready to sleep all night!