The Sudden Change

This has been a long week for me. I am exhausted and I feel lost. All week I have been trying to get to class on time, concentrate on school, and work out every afternoon. I haven’t been able to do any of it. I feel like because of my mood this week I just can’t make my own decisions or even think right. I have been trying to dedicate myself to do these things and I just cannot. I am not sleeping at night, and the little that I do get to sleep I wake up extremely hot, sweating, and scared. I look around and my room just feels so small and so dark, but when I say dark I mean its morning and the sun is already out and yet the room is dark without anything of light coming in from anyway. It scares me. When I am at school, I’m in class just day dreaming. Or maybe it is not even day dreaming because I have no idea what I am thinking about. I just have millions of things going on in my head without knowing what these things are. My classes go by so slow, like an eternity and in the moment I look at my watch and say there are ten minutes left those ten minutes that I sit back for go by in two seconds. My friends are all crazy. I look at them and just listen to them talk and it’s all so stupid. They are all so pathetic. What is wrong with me? I know it’s me and not them. My afternoons are long and I just feel like eating and listening to music. But I can’t, I can eat, but having to decide what to listen to is so annoying. Either the song is too happy or to sad, or the beat is to fast or to slow. I can’t sit still, and yet I can’t do anything because I don’t even know what I want. It’s very confusing, sometimes I feel I’ m going crazy, but then I feel like and I know that I will get over this. It’s just a like a dilemma I have that I’m feeling lost and everything is a problem. But what is it exactly what I am feeling? Is my body or am I calling for help, or am I just over exaggerating like everybody else says to me. But if I am, I am such a drama queen and I always make fun of the other girls that I feel are real drama queens. I am going to calm down relax; it’s all going to be over soon. It’s just a stage that maybe everyone goes through. I have to fight against the negative energy trying to take over my life. I am a happy person. I live around happy people, and I come in peace. I just think positive and keep thinking positive and there! In just one second I have become a new person. This weird feeling is all of a sudden all gone. I feel that it is gone and I know it’s gone, I feel different, I feel happy I feel completely new. I am ready to sleep all night!